Wednesday, February 27, 2008


You know, I don't get people. I don't think I ever will understand why others attack others when they don't even know them. I can't say I have never done this because I am probably most guilty of it and I never knew why I did it either. I do have good news though, during christmas break this last year I realized how much I didn't care about some peoples feelings or heart. That quickly changed when God smacked me in the face, and put me in a spot where I was thinking about others rather then myself. I thought, you know if I'm going through this pain I wonder how "she" feels. I started to put myself in other peoples shoes when I honestly didn't even know them or care to know them. I began to respect them and pray for them because that's what really works miracles. It was probably the hardest thing for me to do, praying for someone that I knew didn't like me, but I did it anyway. I'm not saying this to put myself up higher than anyone because like I said before, I am most guilty of judging or disliking people for no reason. It's just interesting how much God can really change a persons heart for someone they "hated" for no good reason. LOVE is powerful and that's exactly what God gives. I never thought I could change that aspect of judging about me. I almost found happiness in "judging or hating" others. Maybe that's why I get judged so harshly because I was so harsh to others. Only through the grace of God have I really changed the way my mind thinks. I hope that I can keep this attitude and be kind to everyone because that person you hold a grudge against probably has no clue or could care less, and you're the one wasting your energy and time hating them. Alright, that's just a little something that's been on my mind. I hope everyone can someday realize how truly powerful God is, He can change anyones heart <3

"Beloved, let us LOVE one another, for LOVE is from God; and everyone who LOVES is born of God and knows God. The one that does not LOVE does not know God, for God is LOVE. By this the LOVE of God was manifested in us, that God sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might be able to LIVE THROUGH HIM. In this is LOVE, not that we LOVED God but that He LOVED us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so LOVED us, we also ought to LOVE one another. No one has seen God at anytime; if we LOVE one another, God abides in us, and His LOVE is perfected in us." 1 John 4:7-13

Real LOVE is like God, holy, just, and perfect. If we truly know God, we will love as he does


  1. Alyssa Marie AndereggFebruary 28, 2008 at 6:32 PM

    Some people can write what is really in their heart while others write what they think others want to hear, thats the problem with most CBU students! The Lord puts us in situations that we never thought we would be in to show us what others may be feeling or going through. It is sad to think that you had to feel that kind of pain to be able to understand someone else's in order to stop judging them & still not get it! I always thought is was kind of ironic that I was asked to do the more "Godly" thing and be the bigger person despite how much pain you caused me & others, when you are the one who is constantly talking about being a follower of Christ. For many reasons and because history tends to keep repeating itself over and over again with certain people in my life I have done just that, until now. So, if you think any of those comments are from me, your wrong. Believe me, those who know me,know me well enough to know I will let things go & go until I have had it, I've had it...won't say I disagree with the comments but I will sign my name when I have something to say. I don't hate you, I don't even dislike you, I've even defended you and use to feel sorry for you because at times I've been "YOU"! God can't make people feel the way you want them to feel about you know matter how hard you try, especially at the expense of others. For the first time in 4 yrs. I had to back away from a relationship that at time's I thought I could never live without. Someday you will realize that there are times in our lives that we have to do whats best for ourselves. I have to be focused now more than ever before & to accomplish goals that I have worked my entire life for,I
    have had to remove some of the pain & drama from my life,
    girls like "YOU", happen to be one of them. Sadly to say by doing this it has affected others that I care about. I would be lying if I said by the 3rd or 4th hateful thing that you said about me it
    didn't cause me to start dislikeing you but truthfully the more I heard the more I realized it wasn't because you didn't like me (really, a "Godly" girl like yourself, wouldn't just hate someone that they didn't even know over a guy, would they?). You didn't like me due to your own insecurities, which caused me to have mine, which caused pain on others. Once your "friendship" and personality was explained to me the insecurities disappeared. See Shelby, it didn't matter how immature you acted around his family & friends, it didn't matter how many dumb little comments you left on the internet for everyone to see & think your friendship was something that it's not or ever will be, it didn't even matter to me how many hurtful things you said about me, not even knowing me or what I've been through the last 4 yrs., all I had to do was put my
    trust in him & God. Sadly due to you and your high school drama the only person you ended up hurting in all of this was the one person you say you care most about. Sorry this is so long but it has been a long time coming!

  2. okay are we in third grade where we are writing mean letters to eachtother?

    Shelby is the most humble,amazing, god fearing person that i have ever met. She puts your before her own feelings.
    This is a place for your own thoughts and feelings. If anyone ("anonymous"....otherwise known as alyssa) has a problem try expressing your feelings towards her in a personal message.

    Maybe there should be a restriction for girls with the maturity of a seven year old to be allowed to have one of these?